November 4, 2012 12:39 PM | Posted by Anonymous: | I don't think he's projecting, and I guess makeup can be a sort of lie ... but no more so than any thousands of other status symbols that we parade in front of each other every second of our lives.
I'm not projecting. I couldn't understand the attachment women had to what is really nothing more than a Western burqa until someone asked me why I shave and wear clothes. We're all victims of exploitation. But women should not have to wear makeup. Beauty isn't in the eye of the beholder, our eyes are mostly 20/20 (as optometrists' tests will generally prove). The problem is not with what we see, but how our corrupted - emotionally conditioned - minds process what we see.

It's terrifying that humans have the capacity to accept the Reality that is subjective aesthetic preferences whilst simultaneously imagining that what they perceive is The Reality. It's never more than a corrupted distortion that is the uniquely individual product of our mass conditioning with corrupted constructs like the emotional poison that is Love, for example. Justice is equally illogical and therefore insane. No one's interests are served by punishment or pain.

It's not a sane or humane approach to emotional insanity. Crimes of passion are not committed by sane human beings but by the victims of horrifying creeps who lie and lie and lie to children in their filthy obsession with pleasing themselves.
every nerd who pretends that he hates school
You mean every student who pretends he hates acting in his own best interests? Gosh but do you think it might be because he's trying to please corrupted creeps who use words like "nerd" to denigrate those who are brighter than they are? I understand the "nerds" have it coming; after all, they made the stupid look dumb. We live in a world that cuts down others who rise above.

So that we can appear superior. 5000 years of this and voila, here we are on the brink of extinction (if we're lucky).

Those caring bullies who denigrate those brighter than they have the capacity to be have merely been the victims of imbecilic parents who force children to do things they don't want to do, like go to school.

That's a good way to make your child associate learning with unpleasant stimuli. Well done. Every parent fails Pavlov 101; this is my point. They're too stupid to be breeding life.

FWIW, I enjoyed school but then no one was making me go. I never got a chance to learn a thing until I was 14 when I enrolled for my first day of school. I had to make up so many lies because the system is rigged to ensure indentured servitude under the guise of caring about the welfare of children (don't make me vomit; the State cares about the welfare of children but not in a caring way). They need vassals they can manipulate into dying in slave wars, beating themselves in Self-inflicted pyramid-building (dreams are the new whips), entire lives of consumerism (but never satisfied - happy customers are terrible customers) and above all else, breeding the next generation of corrupted slaves reduced by lies like Love.

Love is the source of all needy and all pain.

I was accused of studying once for a test I aced; it was a little rich, I was running on adrenalin and 2 hrs sleep / night for my first year of school. Study didn't get a look in. But my priorities weren't excelling at Mathematics B so much as kissing Amanda R; and for that I needed popularity. So I obfuscated all my marks (in the only guaranteed way) to ensure I wasn't exposed to such embarrassing allegations again. That was one of the dumbest things I've ever done.

Those filthy rats were all lying. They cared, not I. They were just failboats; I only discovered this when I finally negotiated their obstacle course barriers to friendship successfully. "You have to be < this > cool to be my friend." Yeah well I fell for that dumb play. I got there and vomited.

There was nothing behind the deceitful veils but the ugly Truth; they were all fronting. Bunch of pathetic little illusionists. I've just described literally every human > the age of uncorrupted innocence (including my Self). But now I understand why I'd lose interest in girls mere weeks after we'd hook up (girls I had been certain I could spend the rest of my life with). They were lying. Everything was an illusion. Their personality, their appearance, their charm; there was no substance. It was all one-trick pony bullshit. Unwrap the wrapping paper of carefree careless happiness and you just find more of the same needy.

nb. not every girl I went out with was a hollow shell; but I had to dump those girls very quickly. I told myself it was because I was such a decent chap and they deserved better (they certainly did, but my motives were pure terror; I wasn't remotely decent at all). Underneath the glossy wrapping paper that was my "putting my best foot forward", I knew all too well that there was no prize. Just an empty shell of needy.

I was not real. I was an illusionist as well; only I knew how illusory my faux 'impressing' truly was.

Deceit is insane, no matter which way you look at it. You cannot lie your way to Happiness. I'm beyond embarrassed that it took me 15 years of pain & sadness to realise that Selfish Truth (again).
If you've ever thought about it, the only time you aren't lying in one way or another is when you put your name at the top of the paper. Congrats, you figured it out, except that you're fronting just as much as everyone else. You front as a truth teller
Nonsense. This is not something that cannot be proven. Ask me any question you can imagine; literally anything and you will quickly realise I'm legit. Oh I will be beyond embarrassed if you ask probing questions, but I have zero shame because every shameful thing I've ever done was the result of deceit and lies and confusion and wanting to please.

My name is jonny vincent. This is the most recent pic I have (visa application). This is how I talk to girls I like (you can imagine how that pans out). This is a world choking itself to death with deceit and I'm sick to death of it. I have no need for privacy because I have no malice and I often embarrass my Self because I'm a moron but nothing I do shames me (if it did, I wouldn't do it).
It's a front for your rage against people who never gave you the props you "deserve" when you never bothered to ask who they are.
What are you babbling about? You're just casting ludicrous aspersions around and embarrassing yourself. My entire 'adult' life, creeps I didn't give a crap about (strangers, parents, some 'friends' I couldn't care less about but politikz be political) have tried to emotionally validate me. They try to take ownership of your achieving via expressed feelings that are always insane. They'd tell me how amazing I was. I was amazing on paper but I didn't see how I could be amazing when I was utterly miserable and couldn't finagle Happiness no matter how hard I tried. They'd tell me how proud they were of me, and I would lash out in projected Self-contempt but really, what makes imbeciles imagine those they admire could be in need of a stranger's expressed feelings of idol-worship? Fans are the creepiest...

My parents supported the lower level cult hierarchy ("Home Shepherds" - commune dictators, every last one as insane and cowardly as each other) when they decided in fury and terror that I needed another exorcism. These were huge ludicrous public spectacles where they stupidly imagined I could get embarrassed. This only happened ~50 times (50-0 TKO record against God / Jesus / whatever the hell the Holy Ghost is, FYI) for asking "Why?" and for demanding emancipation or, failing that, to be permitted some small privileges in our commune bubble prisons (permission to read a book or eat routinely, watch TV or play a sport, that sort of thing). But they cannot allow their beloved slaves those sorts of liberties for the same reason Americans cannot be allowed to know about Wikileaks. You can't fool around with illusions; they'll come crashing down faster than you can say:

Christians love their murder and rape,

But those who have fun and hurt no one, they hate.

They're all sociopaths. My parents were fundamentalist sociopaths. Other than the KJV Holy Bible, I was not allowed to read anything until I was 14 and skipped along. And a decade later they're telling me how proud they are that I excelled at ADFA whilst they're killing my siblings and ignoring my pleas / begging / screaming at them not to force children to do things they don't want to do. They weren't as moronic as they made out; they were a lot more conniving and vile than my denial could ever accept. But telling me how proud they were of me for achieving in higher education after I had to live on the street just to go to school...this is what humans have been reduced to; insanity beyond my capacity to process.

But you don't know who I am. So why would you embarrass yourself by making ridiculous assertions about what you cannot know? It's a transparent Toddler fishing trip. The reverse is true, actually. I almost committed suicide in horror at the degrading insane sleazy fawning.

I was one of the best M/HSNL shorthanded HE poker players on the planet in 2007 (I haven't played that filthy evil game of horror in nearly five years and will never play it again), I was "living the dream" of hundreds of millions(?), billions even? Let me tell you about it; it was a god damn nightmare of endless horror. I thought I was bi-polar without the 'upside'; just locked in suicidal depression winning and winning and winning misery. I was surviving in Self-inflicted agony I cannot describe. The pain you have to endure to compete at the elite level of [anything, in this war-obsessed world of competition] is indescribable.

Winners are powered by pain they cannot explain and which embarrasses them so they mostly hide it. Eye on the prize, etc. Pure denial but you cannot suppress torture, just trauma. You assert I didn't get the "props" I thought I deserved. That's ridiculous. I didn't think I deserved anything but ridicule for being trapped (in my own mind, I was trapped between suicide and misery; I had nothing else at that stage but "competing", how could I give it up?)

It was killing me. In the end, it gave me up. Everyone stopped playing me on the networks I partially trusted to be mostly free of cheating. But I had 30,000 little idol-worshipers reading my dumb poker blog where I would ask pretty intense questions about life (under the guise of ridiculing people too stupid to be alive, who I was forced to endure every day) but no one had answers; they all just wanted to express their feelings. They felt I was amazing. They felt I would want to know what they felt. Why on Earth would I?

I'd ask them this, utterly bewildered by their unsolicited imposition. They just interrupt you when you're eating, sleeping, thinking. All they can think about is themselves and it's not very Selfish; I was cruel and brutal but then they were the first offenders.

I didn't understand their insanity but I do now. Humans are tiny little creeps who are impossibly important in their tiny insane minds. They're Special little victims of mothers who abused them with love. They loved me, they'd tell me every day how much. These are strangers who watch a blinking avatar check, bet and fold at high speed at maniacal stakes and they thought they knew me. The insanity was nearly suicide-inducing.

The Reality of Love in this religious world of insanity is this; when they'd invariably ask me whether I felt they should play poker professionally as well, or beg me to give my "honest assessment" of their HHs or statistics, I had zero motive to lie to them. So 100% of the time I told them the unemotional 'brutal' Truth (and I'd list all the reasons why they were insane to even consider such a thing; with a heavy emphasis on the fact that it was all an illusion). Glossy cosmetics concealing abject misery.

I knew so many brilliant young kids - minds as sharp as tacks - who just jumped off bridges or obliterated themselves with addictions to pain 'relief' (illicit poisons when sold by the government, and there isn't a illicit poison I'm aware of that isn't). All these millionaire kids living in misery and keeping up appearances. Crying in private and laughing in public. Flashing bling. Faking happiness. Endless transparent charades for those who wanted to believe in the lie. They were just delivering what was expected of them - even demanded - by the industry.

But not me. There was no one doing what I was doing. I was doing it for the wrong reasons but I'm still proud of it; I was making a lot of industry enemies by revealing (a fraction) of the Truth about who was busted and in debt or makeup; so many lies, just filthy lies. Big egos, tiny minds. I wanted to reveal them all but I was a coward and suicidal without being game enough to sign my own death warrant. I was basically advertising my misery, trying to get answers.

Nothing. No one had answers.

But I had answers for the little insulting idol-worshipers. They demanded the Truth, I gave it to them. So of course they would scream. Vicious hate-filled, incoherent, psychotic screaming (the trauma of Fantasy clashing with Reality). They didn't want an honest answer; they wanted me to lie to them and validate their demented fantasies. But I didn't care about them so I gave them Truth.

I only cared about the opinions of my exploiters; who were never impressed (because they were needy and they needed me to suffer; they had to "keep me grounded"). They reduced me so effectively, I couldn't really get any lower, emotionally. It was vicious and brutal but I was in denial so it was my fault in addition to being my fault for presenting my Self to creeps I stupidly wanted to impress).

Whenever I achieved something on paper for them, I thought they'd be impressed. Nup. Why would they be? They just kept on reducing me lower and lower and spinning everything I did as dark & Selfish. If I was generous, I was "showing off". If I was circumspect and reserved, I was a "tight-fisted Scrooge (or Jew)". If I offered to help them in a tough spot, I was "trying to assert my superiority". If I didn't want to give them $4000 for a freaking dog's knee operation, or to extend the misery of a loved family member with a terminal illness, "I was (personally) killing their dog or loved one". This is the reality of our reduced species. Billions of demented leeching Toddlers who will never win because they're too busy lying trying to reduce and manipulate everyone else. Everyone gets to lose.

When I finally started talking about my existential misery with them, they'd get awkward and try and assert I was being "emo". I was. I understood. I flew overseas in horror and tears.
Who are we? Do you even know? Could you be bothered to ask why we dress how we do, act like we do, who we hang out with?
You are kidding me right?
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Why am I talking to the insane.
You don't care, because it's every bit as much a lie as us lying with status symbols -- everyone is supposed to accept that you are Truthteller Jonny, while at the same time, your lack of interest in why people are lying shows me it's a front.
I care about people with value. Children I cannot protect because I couldn't even protect my siblings from the love of evil liars who Confidence trick children into Trusting them before reducing them into mindless slaves.

You're not supposed to accept anything. You're supposed to think for your Self; you're supposed to want to find the answers. You're supposed to want to improve your Self. Do you?

I know why everyone lies. All of the above is basically explaining that I know why people do what they do, because I've done it all. Do you know why you lie to your Self? Do you know why you chase Love?

And so we beat on, boats against the current

Borne back ceaselessly into PTSD.
Like Alex Jones who holds himself out as an expert on how the shadow government works, while at the same time not knowing how Congress really works and how a bill comes out of commitee, nor who is Speaker of the House. And he never bothers to find out, because knowing how and why might make his pat answers more complex.
You'd be surprised at what people know but pretend not to know in this world of deceit. People lie a lot; did you know that? The reason that guy (who I've never heard of) lies is because it's what his listeners want to hear. Blame the people who demand / tolerate the lies; they're the ones who make liars lie. They don't want the Truth. They want to hear what they Know validated endlessly.

They're all batshit insane.
If you're so authentic, fine, but I'd be willing to put down $50 that you couldn't name 6 co-worker's kids, or what sports the kids play.
I've been retired since 2008 but why would I possibly care about what sports are played by children I have only academic interest in protecting for the future (when they might be interesting if they're not corrupted first; and they're all corrupted very early in the game). I'm interested in things that matter; if you can't tell me why you had children of Your Own in a world where 30,000 under the age of 5 die every single day, why the hell would I be interested in your demented small talk and living vicariously through your children who you reduce with endless lying and 'Protection' Rackets? nb. It's protection from Reality with Fantasy, because that makes perfect sense.
So much empathy, but can't be bothered to find out simple facts about other people. Nothing that doesn't directly impact your life. At least the "psychomothers" manage to find out whether junior likes art or football or animals. And when those "lying women" get together, they can manage to find out what the other woman likes.
Why would I want to learn unimportant facts that have absolutely no relevance to my life? The question mark is for you. When I was a borderline sociopath delighting creeps non-stop, I was 'fascinated' by all their dumb shit. Anything to make them feel good so that they'd like me. I was very needy. I needed everyone to like me. No one likes that sort of chameleon for long; but I'd sweep everyone off their exploitable feet (before dropping them in narcissistic blame for being the victims of my - and their - deceit).

Those "lying women" you just described are filthy sociopaths-in-denial. You think they care about each other? What crack are you smoking? They don't give a rats about the welfare of other humans; they're all nauseatingly transparent villains. Ask them next time they pull the wool over your Special eyes with their feigned interest why they have the nerve to pretend that you're so Special; i.e. why don't they care about a world their denial is destroying and the millions of humans their needy is murdering (corporations are competing with limited liability - simple game theory - what's going to happen to companies with ethics in a competitive, unregulated global market?)
In fact, not only do the women find out about the other person, they can usually find a reason to celebrate their birthdays or congratulate the other person who's just gotten her son a full ride to college.
Yes we all know they're sociopaths. Why are you beating a dead horse? They only care about Their Own; everything they do or say or pretend to care about is a lie. If you were in genuine Need, you'd discover the Truth about how Christian women feel about Luke 14:33.
"So likewise, whosoever he be of you that forsaketh not all that he hath, he cannot be my disciple." - Jesus Christ (KJV)
They're all sociopaths. Everything is a demented, transparent lie.
We're not perfect, to be honest, we're apes with delusions of civilization.
Wrong. Studies in collectivism have proven we are below primates when it comes to "group-think" and insane emotional corruption. I'm presenting a (damn good) theory for why.
Just don't kid yourself that you're one iota different from the women who "lie with makeup" you're lying with your clothes and your car and your fronting on the internet. No one has ever seen the real human.
I'm nothing like those worthless screaming banshees. I wear clothes because I'd be arrested in minutes for walking around in the nude or in jocks. Also, it would be arguably inconsiderate and irrationally extreme - possibly traumatic, even - for the victims of the emotionally traumatised insane. There isn't an iota similiar between those who prefer to appear Happy than do anything towards being Happy.

They are motivated by deceit. I am Selfish. They are too stupid to perceive optimal Selfishness.

I want to contribute. They want to leech. I care about the welfare of others, for purely Selfish reasons. They care about the opinions of those they wish to manipulate or Use, without caring whether humans live or die. They scream when you ask questions about their motives; I write borderline unreadable (but purely honest) 100,000 word essays like this one if you ask about mine. They lie to children to make them their little images of perfect behaviour (as defined by creeps. I get screamed at for telling their children Truth. They snap the free will of anyone they can. would die before forcing someone to do something they didn't want to do (if I cannot persuade them to act in their own best interests, what does that say about me?)

If it says nothing bad, then they cannot be helped. And they should go - with God - to a more peaceful place. If I was a better person, I'd be capable of being mercifully humane with those who scream filthy religious lies from their vile pulpits of needy pain. Humanity should Rest them In Peace.

It's indecent to do nothing as they scream their lies at children who should be permitted to remain sane.